We're Back!

We got back two days ago now and are recovering from jet lag. Our trip was extremely difficult for all of us. Overall, S did great, but it was hard for her to be in the orphanage atmosphere again. It all worked out though, she spent a lot of time away from the kids and had the luxury of playing and interacting with them when she chose to. It was very interesting to see how they treated her and where they felt she fit in. The children ranged in age from 1 to 14, with several children older than her. She made fast friends with a 10 year old girl the first day, but decided she wasn't overly comfortable playing with her or the rest of them. The children were very aggressive, which scares her. The children were very protective of her, and initiated play with her. I think she learned a lot from being there, and my belief is that the more positive experiences she has in that environment, the better she is able to process her feelings about her first year of life. Honestly, I was pretty traumatized from the experience there. I was emotionally drained everyday, feeling hopeless to change the situation for them. I must press on and get past my own shortcomings to try to help these kids. Some of them were so smart and have such potential. Hopefully we can support them to continue with school. One 15 year old girl practiced her English with me while I practiced my Chinese with her. I would ask her a question in Chinese and she would answer me in English. She was the only one comfortable using her English, even though all of the kids that attend school learn English. There was one boy who was so eager to learn, he would ask me to read him the English words and he would write them on the board. All of us got sick at one time or another except S. I was sick the longest, and I still am recovering from a cold. It is so good to be home. S said things like, Home Sweet Home, and There's No Place Like Home. It was so cute. She starts her new school in 2 weeks, I am hoping for a good year. We need to get back into a routine for our NR and our vision exercises. S's glasses came in the mail while we were away. She couldn't wait to get back to wear them. They need to be adjusted, they don't fit her properly. She is excited about them though, and she looks adorable. My level of exhaustion right now is not making me look forward to the task ahead of me. At this moment in time, I just don't know how I'm going to do it. I'm still unpacking, washing clothes, and catching up on paying bills. It is so hard to be gone for so long. Hopefully in a week or so, I'll be able to write that I'm all caught up and ready to tackle everything. HA! Those are lofty goals! Let's see if I can do it...