Must Be the Stress

Yesterday we had a terrible experience. Emotions from the trip and the anticipation of school starting next week must have finally reached the tipping point. Instead of the crying episode we have gotten in the past, this more resembled the dreaded "rage". Can this actually start happening at this point when it has never happened before? She wanted to be destructive and I didn't let her. I gently restrained her and it seemed like forever before she finally calmed down. It was actually sort of calm while it was happening, just persistent. There has never been any anger, only frustration. This time looked more like anger mixed with frustration and hopelessness. She yelled something out during this episode which validated my theory about what might have happened to her when she was young. These occasional outbursts of random things has given me puzzle pieces to put together. Hopefully she is processing things and I am able to help her get through it all. It stirs up such anger in me at the people who caused all of this. Kids should be able to be happy and not deal with this kind of stuff. The good thing about these episodes is that when they are over, everything is wonderful. She takes back all of the negative things she says. I keep telling her I'm glad she feels that way but that it's okay that she has these feelings and I want her to tell me about them. I look back at where we were last year at this time and we are so much better. It is such a slow process, but we will get through it. There are just a couple of things I need to tell the teacher this year as opposed to an hour long conference and a lot of uneasiness. I hope that things go well for her.