More About School

So far so good with school, getting up in the morning is hard. I'm still hearing good things about school and she looks forward to going. When I asked what she liked best about school, she didn't know. When I asked what she didn't like, she said nothing. The best part is when I pick her up, she yells out, "Mommy!" and gives me a giant hug. Part of me thinks that she is surprised that I am there because she thinks she has been left there to stay. Before I adopted, I used to hear people say that their children thought they were being abandoned everytime they were left somewhere and my first thought was to blame the parents for not making them feel secure or pre-emptively bringing up the idea to them. I need to remember that when I tell people who aren't in my shoes, that they are in my pre-adoptive shoes and I have to understand. I wish that none of this was a reality, but it is and I have to deal with it. The hardest part is needing to convince other people to treat your child with compassion when they think it's all the parents fault. They just want to prove you wrong and "save" your kid from your overprotectiveness. It seems the closer you are to people, the more they want to oppose you. When I tell people about S's eating issues, they simply don't believe it. If they only opened their eyes and ears about it, they would see that she actually wants to eat. She actually tries new foods and will ask for the same thing that the other kids are eating when she knows she won't eat it! If she were just spoiled by me, she would flatly refuse to try anything new and would never choose to go hungry just to be like the other kids. Why do people refuse to comprehend that? My heart is starting to pound and I realize that I am ranting again. I've got to stay tough and get more creative for my little one. I think maybe it's okay to resort to lying, how pathetic is that?