I found my notes from the other day. I mentioned that I had these mood stamps and started a sentence with them. So her first response to I feel mad when....
was-"I'm mad when nobody loves me." Could she really feel this way? I was floored. Then she answered to I'm annoyed.....that you don't like me. This was 5 days ago. She hasn't come out with anything else like this. Today she answered to I'm happy when....you stop(NR) for hugs. Of course this called for a huge hug. Today during fetals, she was doing it wrong and I corrected her. Now she does these ontop of me so I can move her legs and keep her in a semi-fetal position. She flew off of me and said she didn't want to be ontop of me. I told her it was okay and she could do them on the floor next to me. She went ahead and did them without anymore problems. One day, we were playing with a throw blanket and hiding under it. I pretended she was in my tummy and then was 'born' when I lifted the blanket. Once, I did it partially hiding her under my shirt. She asked to do this today and I did. When she was born, I said, "Oh, what a sweet baby girl, look how beautiful she is!" all the while touching her like she had just been born to me and I was admiring her every detail. She said in a sweet little voice, "I love you." She said it with feeling like I have only heard a few times before. She wanted to do it again and we did. this time I was more elaborate, "Oh look, it's a girl! I always wanted a baby girl! etc, etc. She said she loved me again and it felt like we really could have been taken back to the moment she was born. I do love this venture we're on, even though it really hurts me so to know she has been so heartbroken at such a tender age. I would have never believed that a young child could hurt so much from being adopted. I really want to be to the point where she can just enjoy her childhood fully without worrying about such big things and just worry about normal kid stuff.