We got through today faster than usual, but with some delay. She said she needed a hug break, so I aksed her how she was feeling. She answered sad. She didn't really know why. While we were creeping, she said in an excited voice that she needed a mommy and answered a lively I love you in return to mine. I hope this continues and that she is feeling a little more secure, especially after dropping the huge bombshell about her past. How I wish it weren't true, but the detail she gave me she could not have known any other way. I am so grateful for others' pictures from the orphanage, otherwise I couldn't have confirmed what she said. I didn't even see the detail she described when we were there. I'm still so angry over it though, and it makes me wonder what else happened.
I think back to how far we have come and can't believe what we have accomplished. Just recently, she has been able to control her tongue movements a little. She can finally stick out her tongue. Tonight in the bath, she was moving her tongue back and forth from one side of her mouth to the other. This is the first time she has done this. I remember that she wouldn't let a toy near her in the bathtub, she would just push it away from her. Things that took others kids hours, days, or weeks have taken years for her. Basic things such as knowing if she is hot or cold, wearing different texture clothing, eating anything solid, using a cup for the first time, finally being potty trained for #1 at 4 1/2 years old, coming to us for comfort, reacting to pain, eye contact, looking to us for approval and caring about praise. This is just a small list of the obstacles we have overcome in the past 3 1/2 years. I can't wait until she has her first playdate, her first sleepover, her first dance class and many more things that every child should have. Some of these things seem so elusive right now but I'm confident they will happen.
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