An Emotional Day

I am just loving that fact that attachment is taking off so, but it comes at a price. S is getting anxiously attached to me. Yesterday I needed to accompany big sis to at least a 2 hour appt. S kept saying, "I don't want to be away from you." OMG, so now what am I supposed to do? I wish I had a direct line to a councelor at that momment to tell me what to say. It all worked out in the end, but I felt so horrible to have to leave her. I ended up pacifying her by telling her she could go to the next appt with me. This finally diffused her, she was not letting go. So while I'm thrilled she finally wants to be with me, I don't know what to do. I hope this doesn't happen when she goes to school. I can't worry about things that may never happen, it wastes too much energy. She wanted me to sleep with her in her bed last night(she's in a toddler bed). I told her I had to leave once she went to sleep and she seemed agreeable. Since I was so guilty for what went on earlier, I decided to stay with her when she woke up when I tried to sneak out. I brushed my teeth and got my pillow and came back to her. She hugged me tight and said, "I love you and I DO need a mommy." It made it worth sleeping in a fetal position crammed in a toddler bed. I woke up at 5AM so cramped and in pain, I decided to leave. She didn't wake up. You can tell she has older sisters because she says to me, "Don't ditch me in the night." Gotta love that older sister influence-NOT! We got through our NR in record time yesterday, hope it goes that well today.