Light Bulb Moment

I can't believe I didn't see it coming. The last 3 weeks at church, S has been having horrific behavior. Like screeching, needing to be restrained and throwing her head back to try to get away. I had to take her outside yesterday, it was so humiliating. I was so surprised by this regression, I hadn't seen it in soooo long. I couldn't even relate to why it was happening. I really had forgotten that she used to be like this. I couldn't see it for anything but bad behavior. I realize there is always something driving this, but was just angry and frustrated and completely in the moment. I was in no position to help her, how pathetic. The one psotive thing that came out if it was that she remembered that I said I would punnish her at home since I was pretty helpless at church. I guess that was why I was so frustrated. How to you stop the behavior when you are out in public. I found myself wishing that I could spank her. Even if I were in the privacy of my home, spanking would only make it worse in the long run. I hated feeling so helpless to do anything for her or me. Once we were home, she remembered that she couldn't use the computer and used tremendous self control by not going on it and saying why she couldn't. What a huge step for her!!!! Anyway, my lightbulb moment was this morning when going through the attachment group emails. We added a fetal pattern, that's why this is all happening. (insert a big DUH! here) Why wasn't I prepared for it, I should have known. I guess I have too much on the brain for this. My daughter graduated from high school Saturday and we had a big party. I have been so consumed with graduation stuff, IEP and all things related, that I didn't have time to put two and two together. We had no NR for 3 days with all that has been going on. We need to get back today, and we will back off of the offending fetal. She has been so willing to do this one too. We will just go slower. Summer is a good time for regression. If only we can get through by fall......