4 Hours?

Oh my gosh, is it really worth struggling 4 hours to get NR done? She was so resistant today, but I just kept trying. Most of the 4 hours was waiting her out. When I threatened to punnish, she said, "I want to be punnished." I guess that's an attachment thing, she has to make it sound like she's always for whatever is going on. She has said several times during out NR, "I don't need a mommy." I just tell her that I need her and remind her of the things I do for her. I look at it as a good thing that she is expressing some feeling, even if it is negative. I've decided to go a little easy on the one fetal pattern, but we are plugging away because I need this to come out in the summer when we can better deal with it. She is saying really sweet things to me like, "I don't want to be away from you." Tonight, she asked what we are doing tomorrow. I told her that her sister and I were going to breakfast with someone. I was just about to tell her that she was going to stay home with her other sister when she said, "I want to go with you." I want to look at the menu and get something to eat." Okay, so I couldn't say she couldn't go after that. I have been doing quite a few errands without her the past few days, so I am going to let her go. I asked if she could be well behaved and she said she will sit and wait for her food. Luckily she eats a couple of breakfast foods, so it might work out.

I am looking at another private school tomorrow too. It's far away, but they don't charge above what the scholarship pays. I just don't know what to do at this point, the choices are so similar. I think she could use a small school to just get used to being in a school atmosphere. This pre-school year was a disaster on many fronts, but successful in some areas. I hope she can be in a regular classroom eventually, but if she can't, then at least I know there are options. I think it will get better as she gets older. Each day, she still improves a little more than the day before. I ordered a vitamin supplement that I might try. It is a liquid, which is hard to find. It doesn't have a ton of questionable ingredients like some of the things on the market. The only substance that has a calming effect is hop(s). I looked it up and it doesn't have any risks or side effects, so it's worth a try. We are going back for more BIT/crossinology next week. If the effects are noticable, we will do more over the summer. I am going to look for a cranial sacral therapist too. Today during our NR when she was out of control, I got her to lie on her back and put my fingers on the top and bottom of her feet. My thumb was just below the big toe on the top, and the other 4 fingers were together on the bottom right at the ball of the foot. This calmed her immediately, and she stayed there for several minutes. Her energy level is over the top and she never stops moving. Tonight, she was tired, so after her bottle, she just stayed in my lap. She even let me snuggle her a bit. We're making progress, but only one tiny baby step at a time. I guess that is all that feels safe. I stayed with her until she fell asleep last night and tonight. she said she wanted to sleep in my bed, but I told her she could when her daddy went to work because the bed was too crowded! We all need to be able to sleep or we'll all be crabby.