How Much Can I Ask?

I saw something on the news last night about commemorating the anniversary of 9/11. Will they say something about it in school? Can I even ask them not to? Well, I know the answer is yes, but what do I say? They had a tornado drill(I think, based on what S told me), and she has been worried about it ever since. If she has to know about terrorists, I'm not sure she will ever feel safe. Someone on one of my groups brought up that anyone who lived through 9/11 has a bit of PTSD. I definitely agree with that. I don't look at things the same anymore, and a commotion or unattended luggage makes me instantly uneasy and on guard. I think I will use this example when I meet with the school.

Yesterday, S, myself, and my 14 year old were in the car. The radio was on a music station, turned low so we could converse, and my daughter and I were talking. Suddenly, S pipes up and says,"What's it mean, hope to die." Luckily, my daughter recognized that it was part of the lyrics of the song that was on and we explained that is was an expression. I told her that it was like books or movies, you could say anything in a song, but it didn't need to be true. I also told her that they use certain words so they have a rhyme. She was okay with that, but it is amazing that she caught that when it was barely audible. I guess the hypervigilance is still there, maybe she is just better at hiding it : (((((

She worries a lot, and still asks a million questions. She wanted to know who would bury the last person left on Earth. Who thinks about that? She said that she would cry when I died. I thought that was pretty big of her to say that, her emotional vocabulary is getting so much better. I am so grateful for our faith, without it, what would the answers be? No one can make sense out of life, particulary when it's unfair. At least when you believe that someone more powerful has a plan, and that someday we WILL understand, it makes it easier. I remember my life without faith, and it wasn't good, there were no answers, and that was not working out with someone who has almost as many questions as my little darling.