What a Week!

I has been a rough week. A series of little mishaps happened and it all blew up Friday night. We had a mini 'rage' which as usual, was very difficult to endure. The odd thing is that it sort of continued the next day in the form of negativity. The good thing is that she is able to verbalize her emotions quite well. The biggest thing is her fear of loss. She would rather have everything and everyone in her life gone rather that have us and fear losing us. It is better to have nothing at all. She even went so far as to say she just wanted to go back to live in China. I think it's all too good and she just can't bear the thought of losing it. I really can understand it. I think we can all relate a little bit to this. Haven't we all felt like it was a dream when we had everything going great in our lives and we were afraid we would wake up and it wasn't a reality. Everyone has a fear of loss, but not to this extreme. I wish there was some magical way of taking all of her fear and pain away.

I have a meeting with the school tomorrow. I have no idea what to expect, I hope I am prepared. They seem open to more than one meeting, it's not like the public school. I hope I can present it in a way they will understand. Today is a busy day that is unavoidable. if we can just get into bed early tonight, it will all be okay.