My Turn to Be Sick

Ugh!!! Now I got sick. I haven't been this sick in a long time. If I didn't have a flu shot, I'd swear it was the flu. Body aches, chills, and a cough that hurts. It would conveniently coincide with my husband going to work, so I had to get up and drive the kids to school and do everything myself. I could barely get out of bed and couldn't wait to get back in at night. Today is a little better, my body hurts less and my cough is a little better. It doesn't help that I have some sort of appt everyday this week. Our 15 year old dog is not doing well either for the past 3 weeks. Tomorrow, the cat goes in to be neutered. When it rains, it pours.

Attachment 101- I remember reading about parents pre-emptively telling their children they were safe and that they were good parents, etc, etc. I also remember thinking how crazy they were. Wouldn't that just be obvious? Wouldn't they be instilling doubt where there might be none? Well, wouldn't ya know, my daughter would need to hear these words. If I only knew. I remember banning the Barney program in my house because my first child LOVED the dark and thunderstorms. One day Barney was teaching kids not to be afraid of those things. Who wanted to put it in her head that you could be scared of those things to begin with? I turned it off and decided that would never be on in my house. Well, it was effective for my 3 birth children who were loved and secure from day 1. I could have never imagined that life could be so different for a neglected and traumatized child. Your brain can't go somewhere that is so unnatural. You don't ever want to believe that love can't quickly fix what happened before, that your child would have to be told they are safe and that no one will hurt them. That you will never leave them, that they will always be your precious baby, that they can rely on you for everything. Last night, while we were lying in bed, S says to me, "You'll always keep me safe and you won't XXXXXXXXXXXXXX. right?" "Yes baby, mommy will never let anyone do anything bad to you, ever." At least I can comfort her now.....