Great Leap Forward and Some Sad News

Okay, this morning I was getting S ready for pre-school. She said something about wanting out house to fall down/be ruined, something like that. I said that we wouldn't be able to live here if our house was destroyed. She said, "I don't want to live here." So I asked, Where do you want to live then?" She said, "In China." I asked, "Who do you want to live with in China?" She answered, "The lady who led me." I asked if she meant her nanny and she said yes. So I asked, "Do you want to live with her and have mommy and daddy go back home without you?" She answered, "Yes" I told her that we would miss her too much and wanted her to live with us forever, that we were her family. I told her that we could visit with her nanny and always be able to see her and keep in touch with her. She seemed satisfied with that and we got in the car. After we were in the car, she started talking about the other babies and where they went and did their parents change their clothes? She started going off on a tangent, but I was thrilled that she opened up and talked. After she stopped talking, she was just staring and was in deep thought. I asked her how she was feeling and she said. "Sad" I told her it was okay to feel sad and that I wanted to try to make her happy. It was a big day and I hope she continues to express her feelings.

The sad news is that I went into her school today and that I heard the other kids talking about her. They started telling the other mom all of the things she does. It was clear that she stands out. One boy said that when she asks for more popcorn, the teacher replies, "You already have some!" the teacher overheard and said, "I don't say that, I always give more when someone asks." I also witnessed something with the boy who punches. The teacher had him come out and apologize to the boy he hit and then proceeded to say that they can't play a certain game because people can get hurt. This makes the vicitm think it's their fault. The teacher also told me that she hoped and prayed that this year overall has been good and that too much damage hadn't been done. Did she really say that? Damage? I am distraught to say the least. I think God is overestimating my endurance. I guess we have to get low enough to be rescued out of the pits. I think we've hit bottom, come rescue us!!! The teacher from the school was at school today and S missed half of the party I can to help with. I finally asked if someone would go and rescue her and they did. The teacher from the public school appeared to be testing her. I don't want this happening on school time, I am not paying for her to be with someone else. I need to make some calls and cause more conflict, grrr, not what I want to be doing.