More Therapy, When Will It End?

We went back to the speech therapist for help with eating. We will work on improving muscle strength in the jaw and the lips. We are also working on mobility of the tongue. The other day, S was eating chocolate chips(her reward). She put a couple in her mouth while tipping her head back. I noticed something different, worried that she was choking. I asked her if she was okay and she nodded her head yes. I think she even spoke. She reached for a glass of water, and i asked if she was okay again. As she reached for the water, her body sort of quivered, like when you suddenly get a chill. She drank some water and she was fine. I think it went far back in her mouth and she couldn't get it forward with her tongue. After it was over, she admitted that she was choking, or at least on the verge. This has always been my biggest fear. It is more real than ever because I was ready to have my daughter dial 911 for myself the other day. Choking is the scariest thing. So I am glad we are seeking therapy to finally have a chance of her eating more foods. I am really feeling depressed though, because we have this daily therapy, along with our vision therapy which we have NOT started yet(guilt, guilt, guilt) and our NR. I am glad we had this little break, because I needed a time to feel normal. All that has been going on in school has been more than I can handle. This week seems a little better. I have made it a point to let S do whatever she wants when she comes home from school to unwind. Therapy is the last thing we want to have to do after a stressful day at school. Maybe we be done with therapy by the end of THIS school year. I'm tired, I'm stressed, and I want things to improve. Someday...